Oookay

[patgund]

Called someone I hadn't talked to in almost 7 years today.

I remember when he had a personality.

I remember when he was interesting to be with.

It was like talking to a photograph, there was no there there, nothing besides his job and hobby.

Yesterday I talked with Linda, maybe for the last time.

I remember a bright, funny, wickedly sarcastic woman. Not the bitter, tired, "my way is the right way" person I talked to yesterday.

These were both people I knew for a very long time. And now nothing left but sad memories and a closed door.

Have I changed so much??

How many more doors will close before I leave?

Will there be any left open?

Comments

[silkensteel.livejournal.com]

You're making dramatic changes in your psyche, bringing forth someone long buried.

Many people never know they can do this, or that there's anything different from what they've gone through their lives thinking what or who they are.

It won't get any easier, but I guarantee it'll never be boring.

[beki.livejournal.com]

People are ever changing. Think of life as a book. As one chapter ends, another starts. The question isnt so much about endings, but more about is the book interesting? I dont know about you, but I want to be a book that reaches out and grabs you and you have to read it all in one sitting, even if it takes all damned night :)

[winterlion.livejournal.com]

Love what the others here are posting...
I'll try and add something:

Life is change - whether we like it or not. Some surf the change, some flow with the change - and some indeed do close up and hide from change. There are of course other options....
(bastion against negative change, adapt but be constant, lead the change, ...)

You are adapting one way or another - and growing. Growth is good.

It sounds like these two people have closed up and hidden from change.
Wonderful as these folks may have been - it's time to move on.

*heh* that's advice I should take. Ta!

[filkferengi]

If it's any consolation, at least *you*'re still learning, growing, and being fun and interesting.

Take care.

[kiarapanther.livejournal.com]

Some people just get so caught up in life that they do tend to seem fairly boring to the rest of us. Hopefully someday they will be able to take a deep breathe and live life again.

[dkferret.livejournal.com]

Sorry dearheart, your questions are triggering priestess mode.

Have I changed so much??

It all depends on point of view and perception. My guess is that you are viewing the world with new eyes. Look in a mirror. Not all mirrors are glass and steel -- some are flesh and blood.

How many more doors will close before I leave?

It depends on you. Some thought questions.
Can you leave if a door is still open?
How hard will you work to prevent it from closing?
Does a door have to be exclusively open or closed?

Will there be any left open?
Yes.

[angelique69.livejournal.com]

You've changed a fair amount. Well, in my experience a fair number but some will always be open. We both know how well I like change but it CAN be a GOOD thing. *Comfort hugs* Blessed Be, Angelique

[nolly.livejournal.com]

Some old doors will close.
New ones will open.
Such is the way of life.

[silkensteel.livejournal.com]

It's just a little freaky that we have Patrick as a common friend too. :)

[jadeinsoca.livejournal.com]

YES

I am sure there will be many and I am sure you will find ones that you did not know existed

[catmcroy.livejournal.com]

the door for us will always be open. Love you dearest.