Interesting......

[patgund]

Okay, I'm two episodes into watching "Firefly". Which is why this woman's site struck me as rather interesting.

I think this is the closest to a "Companion", or a classical courtesan for that matter, that I've seen in the 21st century.

Tess Ryan - Escort and Companion, Canberra, Australia

To quote a review:

"I am more convinced that ever that this lady deserves to be the modern day equivalent of the King's chosen one, the most favoured Royal mistress in the most grand of courts.

One of the reasons I say this is because Tess brings you not only genuine physical satisfaction but she does it with a uniquely quiet and intense personal eroticism. This is definitely no wham, bam, thank you maam type of lady. Quite the opposite, Tess is the lady you seek out when you want to experience one of the finer things in life; a sensual encounter that embodies total physical pleasure and genuine eroticism. The time with Tess is time to be treasured."

No, I have no plans to go to Canberra and make an appointment. It just struck me that in this day and age, there is still a demand for the skills of the courtesan.

Comments

[caprine.livejournal.com]

Though there are worse things you could do with your vacation time, especially after the stresses you've been through during the last few years.

[patgund.livejournal.com]

Absolutely no problems with the women who *choose* to work that particular profession, (and have no desire at all to be with someone *forced* into that profession.) But, to be honest, I doubt that I would be able to do anything with a professional in that regard. No emotional context to it, and I'm afraid I'd come out of the experience feeling even worse about myself.

[patgund.livejournal.com]

Besides, I don't see why I would deserve someone that special and/or talented.

[ckgriffin.livejournal.com]

*Kicks you in the ass*

Sorry, seems you needed a wake-up call.

[angelique69.livejournal.com]

Thanks! If you hadn't I would have. I hate it when he says he doesn't deserve thus and so. Blessed Be, Angelique

[patgund.livejournal.com]

Just fighting with a lot of self-doubt today

[ckgriffin.livejournal.com]

And the negative self talk is going to help that how?

Remember, by in large you make your own reality. It is shaped by your perceptions. Choose to view things from a positive perspective.

No, I've never been one for easy suggestions.

But I will provide a user-icon for your amusement.

[patgund.livejournal.com]

(chuckle) Is cute icon.

No, the negative self-talk isn't going to help. I had a long talk with myself, (and the person upstairs) today on that subject. The readings I'm doing on NLP are also helping.

Some people are their own worse critic. Sometimes I think I'm my own worse enemy. The problem is with that mindset is that it's *wrong* I'm not my own enemy, what I am is falling back into the same programming that has been setting me up for failure before. And I'm far better than that - far more worthy than that.

I've gotten to the point I don't see the ogre in the mirror anymore. I recognize that not only does my daughter love me, but I have people in my life that care for me as well. And I trust their judgement - they see something worthwhile in me, ergo, there *is* something worthwhile in me.

Right now I'm fighting that old programming. I'm half a world away, I'm removed from you and others that I consider to be my henges, my support structure if you will. I'm going thougn culture shock and homesickness. All of which is trying to feed that old programming.

But damn it, I competed with people on a global scale to get this job, and won. And several months ago, I set a prayer or plea or whatever one wishes to call it in motion, to create the future I *want* and *deserve* for myself. Which is the very best thing I can think of wanting - to be happy, to be content, to be loved.

And I know, in my heart of hearts and deep in my soul, that I *will* create that future. I planted the seed, and even now I'm husbanding that growth, nurturing it, allowing it to grow and thrive, allowing the changes in myself to allow it to come into my life and future. And trying very hard *not* to make it grow by pulling on it. Patience is the key - and the lession I need to learn right now.

And yes, I backslide on occasion. When I feel lost and with no hope, that there's nothing in me worthwhile, then that nasty voice tells me that nobody cares, nobody misses me, nobody wants me in their life. And sometimes I stomp on that voice. And sometimes it stomps on me.

No, you've never been the one for easy suggestions. But dear, if I wanted the easy suggestions, I wouldn't trust and care for you like I do. You're too good of a friend *not* to kick me when I need it - because I know you want the same things for me that I want.

I know what future and reality I want for myself. And I am doing everything in my power to shape and create it. And sometimes I need a kick in the rear - and othertimes I need a arm around me and a "well done". I know you will provide both when needed.